The War of Ambition: The Battle of Fury.

ive been in a epic battle with satan & his army for a long time now. & i feel im depending too much on myself to fight these battles & not taking orders or not even ask my general (God) for battle guideline. i need my faults fixed if i want to become better as a creation of God.

i hav an anger problem that i cling around with me pretty much everywhere. i always have one gram of anger within me everywhere i go. This is a characteristic that i really hate about me. when im pissed off about something, i usually give off a strong vibe enough to bring alot of people down along with myself. a friend of mine pointed this out to me today & it struck me hard. we had critiques the day before & it wasnt bad at all but this unexpected critique hit me like BAMM, but it was a good call that will probably shape my life & help me become a better person & a better follower of Christ.

This is something i really have to pray for & ask people to pray for me. i cant remember the last time i prayed about this issue & i need God's help or ill lose this battle. i cant lose this battle if i want to glorify God with everything i have.

i like to think of Adam Sandler as me, & Jack Nicholson as Jesus in a way.

My Big Bang Theory

I was recently getting pissed off in my Biology class because all it is, is the teacher talking about chromosomes and crap so im thinking, this is complete BS. im thinking, all science is, is trying to prove God is fake. Then all these things started just pouring into my head like, oh the Evolution theory, people, human beings starting out as a bacteria cell,wtf?? bacteria cell? really? thats such bull. Jesus is a descendant of a bacteria cell, oohhkeehh. And then the big bang theory popped into my head. How our universe out of know where had an explosion and planets popped out of it.

The Big Bang theory, in a way made sense to me though. To me, there was a reason why there was a random explosion out of know where. Maybe not to scientists but to me, there is. When God called out to the empty darkness "Let there Be Light", he also snapped is fingers, and in the center of his finger, where the 'SNAP' originated and amplified, there was a BIG BANG. And out of his hands, all the things he planned, formed out of.

In the Bible, how it says there was 7 days of creation, many people say it might not have been 7 days that we think. As in maybe to God, 7 days was billions of years. So that got me thinking. Maybe what scientists said about creation and their explanation of the beggining is actually how God did it. And then i said, what am i thinking, God doesnt care about the nucleus of chromosomes or photosynthesis.

So then i came to the conclusion, Science to me is still BS.