Monday, September 27, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
The War of Ambition: The Battle of Fury.
ive been in a epic battle with satan & his army for a long time now. & i feel im depending too much on myself to fight these battles & not taking orders or not even ask my general (God) for battle guideline. i need my faults fixed if i want to become better as a creation of God.
i hav an anger problem that i cling around with me pretty much everywhere. i always have one gram of anger within me everywhere i go. This is a characteristic that i really hate about me. when im pissed off about something, i usually give off a strong vibe enough to bring alot of people down along with myself. a friend of mine pointed this out to me today & it struck me hard. we had critiques the day before & it wasnt bad at all but this unexpected critique hit me like BAMM, but it was a good call that will probably shape my life & help me become a better person & a better follower of Christ.
This is something i really have to pray for & ask people to pray for me. i cant remember the last time i prayed about this issue & i need God's help or ill lose this battle. i cant lose this battle if i want to glorify God with everything i have.
i like to think of Adam Sandler as me, & Jack Nicholson as Jesus in a way.
i hav an anger problem that i cling around with me pretty much everywhere. i always have one gram of anger within me everywhere i go. This is a characteristic that i really hate about me. when im pissed off about something, i usually give off a strong vibe enough to bring alot of people down along with myself. a friend of mine pointed this out to me today & it struck me hard. we had critiques the day before & it wasnt bad at all but this unexpected critique hit me like BAMM, but it was a good call that will probably shape my life & help me become a better person & a better follower of Christ.
This is something i really have to pray for & ask people to pray for me. i cant remember the last time i prayed about this issue & i need God's help or ill lose this battle. i cant lose this battle if i want to glorify God with everything i have.
i like to think of Adam Sandler as me, & Jack Nicholson as Jesus in a way.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
dont judge the Bible by its name.
The Bible. i dont like reading in general therefore i dont like reading the Bible. My Bible was given to me in 2007 as my birthday present. At the time my reaction was, "another Bible, u got to be kidding me." 07' was when i was in 7th grade so of course that would be my reaction. & it could be my reaction today, but only because i hav all the Bibles i need to last me a lifetime.
Recently ive been in an extrememly bad mood & been going through alot. i feel God has been putting alot of things such as simple Bible versus on my friends profiles on facebook or just a topic that came up during a conversation that made me curious to look up in the Bible. My Bible has an index in the back where there are reading schedules of different topics or encouragement versus that you could read in the period of 30 days daily. It also has a section of topics of problems you might be going through & you can look up verses to help you with that. That is something that soo cool. Now i can appreciate why the Bible is so important, because has an index of things that you could simply look up & get help on from God's word just like a dictionary.
The Bible in my definition, is the Encyclopedia of your faith. It is a beautiful thing. Im thinking right as i write this, that God maybe is giving me a pretty horrible week just for the sole purpose of me picking up my Bible once again or it could be something else, but it did help me pick up my Bible for once in a really long time. I am very thankful for that. Regardless if it was planned or not, im saying thank you Lord. Although now i have reasons to now look up problems in the Bible or topics, ill still have to overcome my laziness, so im going to pray to God for opportunities to help me pick up my Bible & start reading.
Praise God & his ways of bringing you back into the walk.
Recently ive been in an extrememly bad mood & been going through alot. i feel God has been putting alot of things such as simple Bible versus on my friends profiles on facebook or just a topic that came up during a conversation that made me curious to look up in the Bible. My Bible has an index in the back where there are reading schedules of different topics or encouragement versus that you could read in the period of 30 days daily. It also has a section of topics of problems you might be going through & you can look up verses to help you with that. That is something that soo cool. Now i can appreciate why the Bible is so important, because has an index of things that you could simply look up & get help on from God's word just like a dictionary.
The Bible in my definition, is the Encyclopedia of your faith. It is a beautiful thing. Im thinking right as i write this, that God maybe is giving me a pretty horrible week just for the sole purpose of me picking up my Bible once again or it could be something else, but it did help me pick up my Bible for once in a really long time. I am very thankful for that. Regardless if it was planned or not, im saying thank you Lord. Although now i have reasons to now look up problems in the Bible or topics, ill still have to overcome my laziness, so im going to pray to God for opportunities to help me pick up my Bible & start reading.
Praise God & his ways of bringing you back into the walk.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
My Rollercoaster Faith coming to a Slow stop.
In the past several years, the devil as been slamming me with nonstop, irritating things that causes me to get mad at God & ask "why would you do this to me...again?". In late 2008, my grandfather passed away setting me in a terrible mood for a long time. I believe that the devil himself used this to strike at me when i was most vulnerable. Because at that time, i had a teacher that gave me the worst time & ruined my 8th grade, my bike got stolen, couple months l8r, my new bike got stolen, then again my other bike got stolen. None of those was my honest fault. During that time i asked God the whole time, why are you doing this to me. Therefore throwing me into the deepest bowels of my faith.
Today at the end of my first day of Sophmore year, my student ID got stolen by some weinerschnitzel in the wrestling room. & when i realized ill probably wont see my ID ever again, i blamed the Lord once again asking why the he would do this to me again. I know this is a very very small thing to be complaining about, but when you get thrown little small things at you again & again consistently, it gets to you fast. I realized at this moment the devil knows my weakness & its getting the little things thrown at me to tick me off, ultimately blaming our heavenly father for my small turmoils. As as i was eating my KFC dinner tonight, i prayed to God about the day, & i just mostly talked to him about my day, & when i finished, i felt a sigh of relief, like a weight was pulled off my shoulders.
Today i learned a lot of things. 1. The Devil knows my weakness therefore i must watch out. 2. I gotta stay strong within the Lord. 3. Prayer is the fuel of our faith. Prayer really helps with our problems. I thank God for giving me the turmoils, even though i complain & getting angry at him at the time, l8r on, i come to accept why it had to be done, & my faith becomes stronger in wisdom through them.
"The night is dark, just before the dawn" - Harvey Dent.
i thought Harvey Dent's quote was perfect for this so i wanted to put a pic of him too lol
Today at the end of my first day of Sophmore year, my student ID got stolen by some weinerschnitzel in the wrestling room. & when i realized ill probably wont see my ID ever again, i blamed the Lord once again asking why the he would do this to me again. I know this is a very very small thing to be complaining about, but when you get thrown little small things at you again & again consistently, it gets to you fast. I realized at this moment the devil knows my weakness & its getting the little things thrown at me to tick me off, ultimately blaming our heavenly father for my small turmoils. As as i was eating my KFC dinner tonight, i prayed to God about the day, & i just mostly talked to him about my day, & when i finished, i felt a sigh of relief, like a weight was pulled off my shoulders.
Today i learned a lot of things. 1. The Devil knows my weakness therefore i must watch out. 2. I gotta stay strong within the Lord. 3. Prayer is the fuel of our faith. Prayer really helps with our problems. I thank God for giving me the turmoils, even though i complain & getting angry at him at the time, l8r on, i come to accept why it had to be done, & my faith becomes stronger in wisdom through them.
"The night is dark, just before the dawn" - Harvey Dent.
i thought Harvey Dent's quote was perfect for this so i wanted to put a pic of him too lol
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Summer ends Tonight.
A pretty long summer is now ending, but looking back, i learned a lot in this past short 3 months. Ive met new people, & bonded with a lot as well. Even though i gained a lot of wisdom, my mindset on school is still very weak, seeing as though i was trying to sparknote my book the day before the last day of summer.
Although my thoughts for school are mostly all negative, im looking forward to school which is extremely rare. Im gonna make this year the best i can & this new mindset i have developed will help me lead to great things & shape my destiny. Thinking about my future once again excites me for what God has planned. If what he has planned isn't something i might like right now, it is something i cannot control but will fulfill the Lord's setup for my life & i hope when that time comes, I will still be strong with Christ & be happy to accept the path He has given me. Im being calm about everything that is to come & a lot is coming just in the next few months. School will start tomorrow, wrestling season will come in a few, my fellow praiseteams mates & i have to prepare for retreat soon, & soo much more.
suprisingly, im being very calm about everything. & i think thats how we should be for everything. & i thank the Lord i pray that he constantly molds me into becoming a better man.
Although my thoughts for school are mostly all negative, im looking forward to school which is extremely rare. Im gonna make this year the best i can & this new mindset i have developed will help me lead to great things & shape my destiny. Thinking about my future once again excites me for what God has planned. If what he has planned isn't something i might like right now, it is something i cannot control but will fulfill the Lord's setup for my life & i hope when that time comes, I will still be strong with Christ & be happy to accept the path He has given me. Im being calm about everything that is to come & a lot is coming just in the next few months. School will start tomorrow, wrestling season will come in a few, my fellow praiseteams mates & i have to prepare for retreat soon, & soo much more.
suprisingly, im being very calm about everything. & i think thats how we should be for everything. & i thank the Lord i pray that he constantly molds me into becoming a better man.
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