The War of Ambition: The Pursuit of Happiness.

Its been in a long time since ive written a blog & its because i truly didnt feel like it. & during the duration of me not writing, ive retained a lot of knowledge & understanding of God. But the reason i wanted to write in my blog today was not because sad, angry about something, nor stressed, but because i got a feeling of genuine peace & happiness for a mere 2 seconds that i havent felt in ages.

Weather for me effects my mood in a lot of ways. For instance, sunny open skies make me stressed. Heavy rain days depressed. Sprinkling clouds piss me off. but a cold, windy days with no blue sky not raining makes me happy. & today as i was going home i looked into the PV hills as i saw the clouds go gliding over them & thats when i sensed God's great beauty & creations he has created for our enjoyment that we neglect every single day. In this moment i was able to pick out all the great things i was blessed with throughout the days & weeks that went by. At the site of God's majesty was when i experience true happiness & thankfulness.

I felt this was something i had to blog about because all of us long for happiness in different forms but i believe joy in its truest & fullest comes from God & God alone.

The Glee version of One of Us makes me really happy too.

The Social Network

i really dont have a long review for this movie so here it goes. The movie is almost perfect. It was going solid until it hit the end, leaving you with a dry end & more questions.

the acting was extremely well done, both for the main character & all the others including Justin Timberlake which i thought he did a really good job. The main character, Mark something, his character is borderline douchebag/ahole, but curiously i really liked his character & the audience seemed to like him as well.

To me, the ending of the movie is extremely vital, far more important than the beginning for that matter. Its like having Jesus in the Passion of the Christ not resurrect at the end. For the size of the Social Network's story, the movie should have been 30mins to 1 hour longer. the movie itself was at least straight up 2hrs. In the end, i wanted more from the story, had a bazillion questions flying through my head, & killed my Social Network Movie experience.

Overall i give it a 6.8/10. If the movie was a bit longer to store more storyline, the rating could be much more higher.

+ Movie on Facebook
+ Not bad, kid from Zombieland
- Sucky Ending
- Should have been bit longer.

btw the trailer is realllllly goood.

The War of Ambition: The Fall from Depression

When my grandpa passed away on the Christmas of 2008, i fell into a deep depression for a long time where i lay dormant within my own thoughts alone. After that period, this wave of depression comes back to me every few months to haunt me again. During this time, all the stress of my past comes, also inviting the ones i have in my present life right now to come along as well. Around this time, my motto changes from Living to Eat, to Eating to Live, school sucks again, the light in my life is covered by a shroud of darkness, church is a schedule, friends are just there, & God feels extremely from far from reach.

I think i know my cycle now in small details. I am overjoyed with life, then i get angry really easily, & finally i fall into depression waiting for the arrival of the joy that'll hopefully come soon. Until that time, i can only ask for support from the people around me, because right now, family is at the top of the list of stress.

I like sitting & just meditating with calm, relaxing praise music to settle me down & give me motivation during these times. I think that is the best way to deal with a lot of things in life, in general.

Random/Deep Commercial i saw while watching Chuck.

The War of Ambition: The Battle of Fury.

ive been in a epic battle with satan & his army for a long time now. & i feel im depending too much on myself to fight these battles & not taking orders or not even ask my general (God) for battle guideline. i need my faults fixed if i want to become better as a creation of God.

i hav an anger problem that i cling around with me pretty much everywhere. i always have one gram of anger within me everywhere i go. This is a characteristic that i really hate about me. when im pissed off about something, i usually give off a strong vibe enough to bring alot of people down along with myself. a friend of mine pointed this out to me today & it struck me hard. we had critiques the day before & it wasnt bad at all but this unexpected critique hit me like BAMM, but it was a good call that will probably shape my life & help me become a better person & a better follower of Christ.

This is something i really have to pray for & ask people to pray for me. i cant remember the last time i prayed about this issue & i need God's help or ill lose this battle. i cant lose this battle if i want to glorify God with everything i have.

i like to think of Adam Sandler as me, & Jack Nicholson as Jesus in a way.

dont judge the Bible by its name.

The Bible. i dont like reading in general therefore i dont like reading the Bible. My Bible was given to me in 2007 as my birthday present. At the time my reaction was, "another Bible, u got to be kidding me." 07' was when i was in 7th grade so of course that would be my reaction. & it could be my reaction today, but only because i hav all the Bibles i need to last me a lifetime.

Recently ive been in an extrememly bad mood & been going through alot. i feel God has been putting alot of things such as simple Bible versus on my friends profiles on facebook or just a topic that came up during a conversation that made me curious to look up in the Bible. My Bible has an index in the back where there are reading schedules of different topics or encouragement versus that you could read in the period of 30 days daily. It also has a section of topics of problems you might be going through & you can look up verses to help you with that. That is something that soo cool. Now i can appreciate why the Bible is so important, because has an index of things that you could simply look up & get help on from God's word just like a dictionary.

The Bible in my definition, is the Encyclopedia of your faith. It is a beautiful thing. Im thinking right as i write this, that God maybe is giving me a pretty horrible week just for the sole purpose of me picking up my Bible once again or it could be something else, but it did help me pick up my Bible for once in a really long time. I am very thankful for that. Regardless if it was planned or not, im saying thank you Lord. Although now i have reasons to now look up problems in the Bible or topics, ill still have to overcome my laziness, so im going to pray to God for opportunities to help me pick up my Bible & start reading.

Praise God & his ways of bringing you back into the walk.

My Rollercoaster Faith coming to a Slow stop.

In the past several years, the devil as been slamming me with nonstop, irritating things that causes me to get mad at God & ask "why would you do this to me...again?". In late 2008, my grandfather passed away setting me in a terrible mood for a long time. I believe that the devil himself used this to strike at me when i was most vulnerable. Because at that time, i had a teacher that gave me the worst time & ruined my 8th grade, my bike got stolen, couple months l8r, my new bike got stolen, then again my other bike got stolen. None of those was my honest fault. During that time i asked God the whole time, why are you doing this to me. Therefore throwing me into the deepest bowels of my faith.

Today at the end of my first day of Sophmore year, my student ID got stolen by some weinerschnitzel in the wrestling room. & when i realized ill probably wont see my ID ever again, i blamed the Lord once again asking why the he would do this to me again. I know this is a very very small thing to be complaining about, but when you get thrown little small things at you again & again consistently, it gets to you fast. I realized at this moment the devil knows my weakness & its getting the little things thrown at me to tick me off, ultimately blaming our heavenly father for my small turmoils. As as i was eating my KFC dinner tonight, i prayed to God about the day, & i just mostly talked to him about my day, & when i finished, i felt a sigh of relief, like a weight was pulled off my shoulders.

Today i learned a lot of things. 1. The Devil knows my weakness therefore i must watch out. 2. I gotta stay strong within the Lord. 3. Prayer is the fuel of our faith. Prayer really helps with our problems. I thank God for giving me the turmoils, even though i complain & getting angry at him at the time, l8r on, i come to accept why it had to be done, & my faith becomes stronger in wisdom through them.


"The night is dark, just before the dawn" - Harvey Dent.

i thought Harvey Dent's quote was perfect for this so i wanted to put a pic of him too lol

Summer ends Tonight.

A pretty long summer is now ending, but looking back, i learned a lot in this past short 3 months. Ive met new people, & bonded with a lot as well. Even though i gained a lot of wisdom, my mindset on school is still very weak, seeing as though i was trying to sparknote my book the day before the last day of summer.

Although my thoughts for school are mostly all negative, im looking forward to school which is extremely rare. Im gonna make this year the best i can & this new mindset i have developed will help me lead to great things & shape my destiny. Thinking about my future once again excites me for what God has planned. If what he has planned isn't something i might like right now, it is something i cannot control but will fulfill the Lord's setup for my life & i hope when that time comes, I will still be strong with Christ & be happy to accept the path He has given me. Im being calm about everything that is to come & a lot is coming just in the next few months. School will start tomorrow, wrestling season will come in a few, my fellow praiseteams mates & i have to prepare for retreat soon, & soo much more.

suprisingly, im being very calm about everything. & i think thats how we should be for everything. & i thank the Lord i pray that he constantly molds me into becoming a better man.

Brother

Brother.
Starring Toby Maguire(Spider-man), Jake Gyllenhaal(Jarhead), & Natalie Portman(Star Wars I-III).

The story line is Maguire, who is a Captain of the U.S. military Marine Corp., who has a wife(Portman), and 2 daughters, with a paroled brother, is called back into the line of duty to the war in Afghanistan while his brother stayed back in his home town, watching over his wife and kids, when he Maguire is reported dead after his chopper was shot down. Thinking he is dead, his family moves on, while Gyllenhaal looks after the grieving family. Predictable as it is, of course Gyllenhaal falls for Portman and they begin to have a love interest. Around Act II of the movie, Maguire is found after being held hostage in Afghan and is sent back home. Being back from a tramatic experience to his suburban home, he suffers from post tramatic syndrome. He thinks Gyllenhaal & Portman are having sexual relations (which they aren't), and freaks out, destroying his newly remodeled kitchen, with a pipe and bare hands. The cops show with guns drawn and it gets intense. The film ends about 5 minutes later with him getting out of the cop station.

This movie, was one the most worst films i have ever seen. It lead up to be very good, but ended sooooo dry, it crashed the whole movie into a fire of emptiness and a refund. The trailer reveals literally 95% if the whole movie. The main points of the movie, the main scenes, &! pretty much the whole damn story line. Spy Kids and a better ending than this movie. So if you wanted to watch the movie, my advice is, watch the 2 minute trailer. It'll save you 2 hours of the whole movie, when the trailer, reviews mostly all the storyline.

Overall, i gave this movie a 4.0/10. I will never want to watch it again, ever. There was one good thing about this movie. Toby Maguire may look like pu**y sh*t, but he sure as hell can act like a beast.

+Beast Toby Maguire
-Horrible, dry ending
-Trailer was more intense than the movie.
-Spy Kids was better.....

Gran Torino

I saw Gran Torino the other day, starring Clint Eastwood and a whole bunch of asian people who cant act. Gran Torino to me seemed like Clint Eastwood missing his days as a badass cowboy back in the 1970's er somethin so he wanted to make some sort of "comeback."
Clint Eastwood's role in this film is about a man who's a Korean war veteran who seems to hate everyone except for those who are extremely close to him. For instance, his dead wife, his dog, and his car. He's also racist to everyone except for whatever race he is. *NO SPOILERS* In the end he resolves his personal and other individuals's problems and gives away his car to a dimwit asian kid next door to him (who which by the way sux at acting). The Gran Torino has a legitimate reason to why the movie is named after it, but seeing by what the movie shows, its the only legit thing the writers could have named it. Otherwise it would have been names like Whitey v.s. Essays/Chinks/Hoodfiga's or Ugly Asians annoy the piss out of old fart.
So overall, i give this movie, a 7.3/10.
+Clint Eastwood is pretty good for a guy who looks like he's about dead.
+Legitimately funny racist jokes
-It should of ended with a badass fight scene.
-Asians sucked at acting.


Yea this pretty much sums up everything i said lol

My Big Bang Theory

I was recently getting pissed off in my Biology class because all it is, is the teacher talking about chromosomes and crap so im thinking, this is complete BS. im thinking, all science is, is trying to prove God is fake. Then all these things started just pouring into my head like, oh the Evolution theory, people, human beings starting out as a bacteria cell,wtf?? bacteria cell? really? thats such bull. Jesus is a descendant of a bacteria cell, oohhkeehh. And then the big bang theory popped into my head. How our universe out of know where had an explosion and planets popped out of it.

The Big Bang theory, in a way made sense to me though. To me, there was a reason why there was a random explosion out of know where. Maybe not to scientists but to me, there is. When God called out to the empty darkness "Let there Be Light", he also snapped is fingers, and in the center of his finger, where the 'SNAP' originated and amplified, there was a BIG BANG. And out of his hands, all the things he planned, formed out of.

In the Bible, how it says there was 7 days of creation, many people say it might not have been 7 days that we think. As in maybe to God, 7 days was billions of years. So that got me thinking. Maybe what scientists said about creation and their explanation of the beggining is actually how God did it. And then i said, what am i thinking, God doesnt care about the nucleus of chromosomes or photosynthesis.

So then i came to the conclusion, Science to me is still BS.

Chuck Season 3

The show Chuck is a great show. It has literally ever genre packed into it and still awesome. But it is an extremely neglected show. Like the sport wrestling but thats another topic for later. Chuck can beat any other show FOX network can offer, but still has low ratings and almost got kicked off the air.

Every Season Chuck had had gotten better and better. Season 3 began just recently and it has massively impressed me. Its genius beyond comprehension. Buff as another TV show CBS can afford.

First Blog

So i decided to make a blogspot for myself. I saw others having made one so i figured i should give it a shot since 2010 has arrived & i dont have a resolution.

I've always wanted to write down somewhere what i had exprienced on some days or what i ponder upon for hours on when Skynet will make their next move.

I will keep this blog updated often for which i have nothing else to do.


For now,
"Peace Out, A Town." - Usher