When my grandpa passed away on the Christmas of 2008, i fell into a deep depression for a long time where i lay dormant within my own thoughts alone. After that period, this wave of depression comes back to me every few months to haunt me again. During this time, all the stress of my past comes, also inviting the ones i have in my present life right now to come along as well. Around this time, my motto changes from Living to Eat, to Eating to Live, school sucks again, the light in my life is covered by a shroud of darkness, church is a schedule, friends are just there, & God feels extremely from far from reach.
I think i know my cycle now in small details. I am overjoyed with life, then i get angry really easily, & finally i fall into depression waiting for the arrival of the joy that'll hopefully come soon. Until that time, i can only ask for support from the people around me, because right now, family is at the top of the list of stress.
I like sitting & just meditating with calm, relaxing praise music to settle me down & give me motivation during these times. I think that is the best way to deal with a lot of things in life, in general.
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